School starts tomorrow. For those who don't know, I am working towards my degree in violin performance. Last semester ended in disaster, and I have to re-take a class and give a recital that was supposed to be given this past spring. I am terrified of not making it through that class. I will have a different professor, who interestingly enough is the girlfriend of a professor I had before. Hopefully they will both be able to help me get through this. My grandmother has been in the hospital for 17 days and counting. She had to have major surgery for a bowel obstruction at the age of 83. Her kidneys still aren't working properly, otherwise she'd be out of there and on her way to rehab. I told her she has to get better so she can come to my recital-which makes me feel even worse because I should have just sucked it up and gave it when I was supposed to. My grandma is full-blooded Romanian, and since I am performing Bela Bartok's Romanian Folk Dances on this recital, I REALLY want her to be there because she loves them. The first time she heard them, she told me I needed to go to the local Romanian festival because they have people there who perform traditional dances. Unfortunately that was two years ago, and the festival has been cancelled for this year. My parents are still having serious financial problems. My dad was supposed to come to the boys' birthday party and when he didn't show up I was very concerned-he didn't even call us-very unlike him. It took me a long time to get ahold of him, and while he did not come straight out and say it, I suspect that he did not have the gas money or even money to get presents and that's why he didn't come. He injured his shoulder and now the doctor says the only way to fix it is surgery, which would put him out of work for several months. He told me he was trying to sell stuff "because he didn't need it anymore", which I also think was BS. I think he's preparing for the event that he can't work for a while. We're still in limbo with this house, and I'm freaked out because they're doing FHA again and we got turned down for that before. FHA requirements are nearly impossible to meet. Sigh.