I'm sorry if this isn't the place to do this but I had to get this off my chest. If its an issue you can take it down. I'm a simple young lady. I don't like material things but the one thing that is materialistic and important to me was my car. My oil pan cracked unbeknownst to me and I blew my engine Friday night on the highway. I'm an idiot. The best vehicle I ever had and I destroyed the engine. I need punched in the head or i need a time machine so I could stop myself from driving my vehicle. I am extremely upset considering I'm broke and I am WAY too proud to try to get help from the state. It is going to take every single one of my paychecks from my joke of a job to get a "new" vehicle. Its especially harder now that folks are in the same boat as I am and are looking for cheap vehicles as well. Slim pickings. I am going to a part time police academy and trying my hardest to work my deadend job, go to school and prep on top of planning my wedding. In the past two years, I've dealt with people using me for my money, lie to me and do drugs in my own apartment. I quietly moved out and avoided those damn hippies. Dealing with those people really changed my outlook on life. Today I saw someone has stolen my headlamp and hazard lamp from my car and what did I do!? I finally EXPLODED. I had a breakdown. I turned into a childish brat. I wish I could find this person and cause bodily harm to them. I am sick of people. I have been nothing but a good person to other people. I once would have given anyone the shirt off my back and now I just don't even want to care. How sad is that to say at 23 years old!?? I've lost faith in humanity and I think God has as well with the way the world is going. The only people I can trust anymore is God, my family and my fiance. I hope something changes my feelings because I'm hurting for some meaning to this world. Thanks for listening and for any advice. I need a hug or something.